Sunday, August 26, 2012

To My Husband

I think I've shared with you before that I'm not very good with words.  I feel deeply, but have a hard time expressing those feelings.  These last few weeks I have been flooded with emotions as I get ready to leave my nest and head back into the workforce.  I have mostly been excited....but also nervous and anxious.  However,  the feeling that overpowers them all and is at the forefront of my mind and heart is extreme gratitude for my husband.  This afternoon during lunch I finally decided it was a good time to tell him how I was feeling.  I debated about putting this on my blog...but in the end, I decided it's the reason I have a blog in the first place.  I want some of my memories and feelings recorded and I also want Brady to know what it meant to me to be a stay at home mom and the very reason I was able to do so.
-I know our plan was for me to be off work for one year after we had our little boy.  Thank you for never reminding me or mentioning that one year plan ever again after Brady was born.  One year turned into 9 1/2 years.
-Thank you for carrying the weight of our finances on your shoulders.  I know how heavy that weight must have been for you.  Even though we struggled at times and could have used the extra income, you never once suggested I get a job.
-Thank you for telling me often that you appreciate all the things I do at home.  And, thank you for never making me feel like all those things were solely my responsibility.
-Thank you for always understanding that just because I didn't work outside our home, didn't mean I didn't need a break sometimes.
-Thank you for telling me the reason you believe Brady is so confident and secure is because of ME being home with him.  It's one of the best compliments you have ever given me.
-Thank you for allowing me to stay at home once Brady started school.  Because of you, I was able to volunteer, go on field trips and be a room mom.   
-Thank you for always being so proud of me and making me feel like my job was an important one. It is because of YOU, I had the confidence to apply for this teaching position.
-Thank you for never questioning what I did with my time during the day.  Ever.
-Thank you for always being so happy when Brady and I got to do something fun.  You never made me feel guilty that you were missing out.  Instead, you were excited for us.
-Thank you for letting me be there for all of those early milestones in Brady's life.  I know so many moms aren't as lucky. 
So, after being home now for 9 1/2 years, it's time for me to get my butt back to work!  I am excited and ready. I look forward to being a working mom!  Thanks for being the most excited for me- times a hundred!  And it's not because you're excited about a little extra income...rather, you are genuinely happy for me.
 I will forever be grateful to you for all this time you have allowed me to be home.  I love you so much.
PS. I will miss our weekly lunch dates!


{cindy} said...

kerri what a beautiful letter!! you are both so lucky and blessed.
i hope this first day is just what you thought and hoped it would be.
can't wait to hear all the details!!:)
have a happy day kerri

is brady taking your picture out front with your lunchbox!!!:) haha

jen said...

I love Cindy's idea. I hope you have time to remember to do it.

What a beautiful letter to Eric. You are truly blessed to have a husband like that.

I hope your first day is just as memorable as Brady's!

Nicolle said...

Oh Kerri, this letter is precious. I bet Eric melts when he reads this letter. It's the sweetest thing ever, and I love when a wife/husband are that appreciative of the other. Your relationship is such a blessing and a great example for Brady. Love this so much! Have a great year back at work.

Holly said...

I was a little sappy reading this... your husband is a peach!
And you... well you know I think you are the peachy-est of all!!

Enjoy your new job...
I know there is about to be entire group of little Brady's sharing your awesomeness!

Val said...

This is such a sweet post. You are such a great mom and wife.

Jenny said...

Hi Kerri, I just caught up on your posts and I want to say congrats to you on your new job! That is wonderful. I am so happy for you. I hope now YOU get some of those great teacher gifts... it looks like you and your boys had a great summer. Your letter to your hubby was so sweet. I hope you have a great first day. The kids at your school are so lucky to have you. I hope you still find some time to blog, I would miss your inspiring recipes and gifts! And of course Brady's tennis updates.

Kelli said...

Such a sweet letter.
Have a wonderful first day!

Jill said...

So sweet and heart felt! Best wishes on going back to work. I wish you all the best!


Donna Burns said...

Kerri~ I am going to miss your posts as I assume that you arent going to have as much time now. :) I want you to know that it is a priviledge to be your sister in law. You and Eric have set an example with your marriage that I truly appreciate. Good luck on this next chapter in your life. I look forward to all the crock pot and fast easy recipes we will see on here in the future. We love you. Donna

Jen said...

So sweet...congrats on the new job..and on all the years you were able to stay home. Blessings!

yaya said...

What a great letter, but what's really great is how working together as parents has made Brady the kiddo he is. The most important job we do happens in the walls of our home and you did a good thing to stay home and sacrifice with your hubby in order to do it. Team work at it's best. Good luck with your job and I hope it all goes well for you. I'm sure it will because your hubby will be there to help you in this new phase!

Dan said...

Kerri, as a father having a son-in-law like Eric is special and I have known how special he is for a long time. I know my little girl will always be taken care of.

Kim said...

What a beautiful letter for a wonderful father and husband! I feel the exact same way about BSD and have a hard time saying these things also so your letter touched me even more deeply. Just beautiful!

BEST OF LUCK as you head back to work! Those kids are so lucky to have you! Can't wait to hear how your transition goes.

Megan said...

This brought tears to my eyes. I echo all of the gratitude that you expressed. Staying at home is a gift! What a wonderful husband you have and what a beautiful wife you are to honor him this way.

Hope you are enjoying the new job!

Cindy said...

I was missing your posts and then realized I never commented here even though I know I read it (I was probably crying!). What a great post and now that I see the other comments and support from your family I know even more how great you all must be! Missing your posts but totally understand how busy you must be working (and tennis, right?). Thanks for keeping in touch with comments! :)

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